In a second

In second
I am lonely
I am forgotten
I am upset
I am confused
I cry tears of sorrow
A smile does not touch my face
I lay awake at night
Warmth of my pillow swallows my face
Like a shallow pool
My body is tucked in tight
By the blanket that lays a-top me
I whisper to the dark
The events that have happened to me at late

In a second
I am loved
I am wanted
I am smiling
Tears of another emotion
Flow down my face
The simple touch
The warmth
The world seems right now
Forever is nowI can finally breathe
I smile
Hold me tight
Trace my face
Tell me without words
And yet,

In this second,
I'm trying my best to be brave
To be strong
To remember what I vowed not to feel
I've seen what it does to other people
Even those around me have no doubt
I don't want to be hurt
Again
Because in a second I could be

In a second
I'll ask you
Why?
I don't know what you'll say
Then when I ask you
Are you sureI know that you'll say
Yes
I'll still ask myself
From time to time
If what your feeling is real
Yet I find myself beleiving you
This second
Is it real?
...
I can't finish it...