mistakes

Have you ever thought that you knew someone close to you well? Thought that you knew them inside out? Thought that there isn't something you couldn't possibly know about them, or hear something about them that would surprise and even shock you? Have you ever been so confident and admired someone that you thought you knew so well? Has something happened to make you change your entire outlook on this person and suddenly make you realize that this person may not accually be the person you thought they were all the time you've known them? It's happened to me before.

It's when I descovered I'm not who I thought I am.

Mistakes. How do you define a mistake? Where is the fine line between mistake and just plain stupid? A wise man once told me that everything is subjective. I beleive it.

Have you ever had someone look at you with total discust and dismay? Let me tell you that I pray you never have to feel such a feeling becuase it feels so f***ing bad.

trotting down memory lane

Perhaps it's the ever constant replay of that famous ACDC and/or Pink Floyd song that's gotten my spirits up so high. But I've been blasting the song for so long even sometimes finding myself doing nothing in particular and singing "School's out for summer...School's out Forever!!!" I'm sure that I'm not the only one who feels these sentements because I've also notced a large difference in mood between myself and my fellow comerades. Tears and long good bye hugs are frequent in my everyday now. My friend's and I, however, continue on as we have for the past few years laughing and having the time of our lives as normal. I've humoured the occasional classmate who has come to me throwing themselves in my arms sobbing "I'll never see you again!" as I pat them comfortingly in my arms saying "Sure we will." Who am I to say this anyway? I mean it's better then saying "Ya I know..." or "You'll forget about me in a year or so..." Recently I'd taken it upon myself to make the first move and sayi I'll never see you again where other people say the saem. Funny enough we just end up seeing each other that same day/evening...Maybe its because it hasnt hit me that I won't be friends with the majority of these people i a few years time. Either way I havn't shed a tear.

Funny though. I re-met an elementry school buddy today. He works part time at McDonalds. We caught up and exchanged emails laughing and random stuff and talking about nothing in particualar. We spoke about grade 6. How time flies. Ghosts. Coffee. Buses. Parents that abandon their kids. The list goes on. Finally we traded emails and hugged a long good bye hug. The first meaningful goodbye hug I've given to anyone lately. I'll admitt that when I first saw him I echoed "Awkward!" about a hundred times to Mark and Kayla. But as we spoke more and more, laughed a little more and more it became fun and enjoyable to trot down memory lane. I now, might help organize an elementry school reunion with him...:)